All you can think is, "this cannot be happening." And not in a good way.
My life comes crashing down, with his following in two days' time. Why? How? Our poor mother already has enough on her plate without two kids who are half-mad.
He was my great white hope. She loved him so very much. Now that's over, what does he have? He doesn't care for us the way he did for her. Will it be a retreat to drugs, to attempted suicide?
This is not the sort of thing you just talk about. It doesn't seem real.
