Wednesday, September 9, 2009

battle

Okay, so I'm not eating even though I have been hungry for hours now. I don't understand. I just want to CRY. I can't cry. WHY can't I cry?

What am I doing here, and what are you doing there?

I need a home-cooked meal and a good long shower and then to wrap up in a blanket by the window and watch the falling snow.

I need to go apple-picking and eat my mum's apple crisp on a windy October night.

And the problem is that I want it to hurt and sear because otherwise I can't cry.